Life?!

I've totally been neglecting this blog. There has just been some crazy stuff going on in my life. Some really unwanted drama.

So quick update, lets see. First is that I'll be FINISH will college soon, but I'm not going to be doing the whole ceremony graduation thing, even though I am officially graduating. I'm not going to have a party or anything, in fact I don't even believe my parents will be celebrating it. Second, unfortunately, finish school means I have to move back home with the parents. This just totally sucks in general bc at the moment I'm not getting a long with ANYONE in my household. They all see me as a selfish, lying, evil person. Third, after what 23 years of living, found out who really is there for me, and the sad thing is it is like only 2 people in my life. Fourth, I've cut out all of my family members, from uncles, aunts, to cousins, all that.

That pretty much sums up my life right about now. The drama that happen created all this. Its sad, how I'm happiest at school, then on the weekends. Since I'm finishing up school that's not going to be there anymore.

Oh and I've been looking for jobs and applying but with the whole economy situation going on that's been soo tough. I'm really considering moving far far away from PA, but don't really know where to move to. Anyone have any ideas?

I just love how life is going so great!! (sarcasm isn't just great?)

Hope all you ladies are having a great life, and doing well!!! I really have missed you all!

Sorry

I've been away from my blog FOREVER! I don't even think anyone really reads it anymore. Anyways, whats been going on with me.

Back to the daily grind of school. Which I'm really starting to dread and hate. Hopefully this is my last year here, and then I get to move back home. I'm really starting to hate the city. Its just not for me anymore.

Then with my whole grandmother thing. She is doing ok. I mean she really not getting any better. She has her good days then she has her bad.

As for my makeup life. I haven't really brought anything, but mascara every one in a while. I've skipped out on the Mac lines and everything. Now that I'm writing about it, it kind of makes me sad. lol. I go to Sephora and stuff but nothing really catches my eye anymore, and when I do put makeup on its very minimal.

Hope everyone is doing well! till next time. BYE!

Thank-you!

After my last post, I just disappeared. I received some very kind and sweet words for you ladies. And I just want to say the biggest and deepest THANK-YOU! those words mean more then you know, and just Thank-you!

I'm doing much better. I just hope they don't get any worst.

A mess!

In the last week or two my life has gone from pretty decent, to a complete mess!
First my paternal grandmother goes into the hospital and then we find out she has not one but three cancer, and in her 70's she has no energy to fight it. So now she is at home in pain, and just slowly dieing. And theres nothing anyone can do but to make her comfortable.
Second one of my cousins, just moved down to Florida with my other cousin. I'm going to miss him a lot. We were close, not so close, but for us its close enough in our family. Then he had to leave in the middle of all this with my grandmother. Its just hard to deal with.
The last thing is my parents. My mom is going around to my dad side talking about my sister and I. Saying that she wishes we would just hurry up and get married off, because she is tired of caring for us, and that when we're home all we do is fight like cats and dogs. Mind you my sister and I are around each other 24/7 so there is going to be some arguments but nothing major we get over it in like 5 seconds. Then on top of that my parents sat us down and yelled us, for our behavior at home towards my maternal grandmother. He says that if we can't live by their rules in the house to make them happy then my sister and I should go back to Philly and live and he will send money to us till we are out of college, because he rather be happy then see us.
I'm so close to the end of the line with them, I wish they realized that I too have feelings like them. But I guess thats what it means to be a kid in the Asian culture, its all about the parents. I just hope when I reach the end of the line, because I know they will push me to it, that no one will regret it.

Blue FOTD

Playing with my She Space Mineral e/s again, but this time its with different shades of blue. Well really only one true blue color and one green color, and another natural color. The blue color wish is Tear Jerk, is nice could almost be used in place of black but with blue shimmer, in the bag its more like a bright but dark blue, but once applied its more blackish. As for the Swim with Fishes, that color is just soo PRETTY! it sucks that I only used it a little bit, and when I took pictures the colors tend to get washed out but in person you could see it. I always use my mineral e/s dry, but I know if you used it wet the color pay off would be so much more vibrant and pretty! I suggest some of you ladies that like blues or greens go order yourself the Swim with the Fishes mineral e/s to try it out. I thought this look would be really dark, but the more I look at it and myself (doesn't that sound so vain of me? LOL) the more I really like it.

So I hope you like it!


Too faced Shadow Insurance
Smoking eyes pallete e/s showstopper
She Space Mineral e/s samples in Touched by Truth, Tear Jerk, and Swim with the Fishes
Mac Blacktrack e/l
Loreal clean definition Telescopic mascara in black
Mac blush in prism, and Peaches
Mac l/s in Cherish
Smashbox l/g in pout

My cousin's wedding

Sunday, was my cousin's wedding, it was pretty fun. I did a totally of five people's makeup. My little niece, my cousin vi, my sister, my mom, and then myself. I didn't take any pictures of their looks up close or anything, mostly since my mom, sister's and mines we had to hurry up and leave the house before we were all going to be late. I did do my cousin and niece in the morning but I totally forgot about it. I'm kind of upset about it too, since my cousin looked so pretty with her makeup, and my little niece which she is like 10, wanted me to put the makeup on darker, but I believe makeup for kids should either not be put on or just very very lightly. I think I did a pretty good job. In the end they were all very happy with their looks, so thats all that matters.

So here are the pics, there are more, but some have my sister in them, and she detests her pictures online, and I didn't feel like getting her approval.

my little niece Theresa, and me

Some of my guy cousins



me, and my cousin vi


my parents
Me and Vi again

Missing

Hey everyone! its FRIDAY!!! not like it really matters to me since I'm on my summer break from school, and I don't really do much but run errand for family. This week been kind of busy taking my little cousins shopping for a dress to go to another cousins wedding this Sunday. I thought it would of been hard but surprisingly it was pretty easy. For myself on the other hand, I have a brown and purple dress. I only have black shoes, and I personally don't think black goes with browns and dark colors of that sort, but my sister thinks that blacks goes. So this whole week I was trying to look for brown shoes, but no luck! Oh and while I was at the mall I saw these BCBG shoes they were SOO HOTT!!! but cost like 110.00 and HELLO I do not have the money for that!!! But damn they were sooooo SEXY!!! lol I'm going to figure out a way to get them!!! okay enough about that

As for the title for this entry, Missing.. its just that, idk whats wrong with me lately been I've been feeling so lonely. Like I miss that feeling of someones arms around me and that comfort knowing that someone is there for you. To listen to anything and everything you have to say. Its been like what three or so years since my last bf, I thought I got used to being single, but I guess I rather be in a relationship then being single. But I really think its just me. My personality is that I tend to like/want the things I can't have and once I have it I get bored of it. Idk I'm just blah and whatever right now. Sucks!!

As for Sunday, is a wedding I have to go to. I hope I get some nice pictures. I really need to get some recent pictures of everyone mostly my guy cousins. I don't have a lot of pictures with them. And a wedding is the best time to get pictures since they are all going to look so handsome.
Sorry for the picture less post everyone!